College...... :/

Hey guys its been forever since I've blogged! I know I sort of neglected this thing when I said I wouldn't. I'm terribly sorry for that!

Ok from the title you can already guess what this is going to be about....COLLEGE!! WOO!!
Yeah no. When I think of leaving for college I just want to cry, I know that sounds crazy and many people already are wondering if I'm going insane or not. I'd like to think I'm not but that is debatable.

The main reason I wanted to leave was to get away from "here" as in the community I live in. The people here I tolerate but some days that's just not enough. So after getting accepted to a college in Minnesota I was going crazy! I started counting down the days until I would leave, began planning out what to take what not to take, and mainly thinking of the people I was not going to miss.
With only 5 months to go until I leave, I'm starting to second guess myself. I began asking questions like: Do I really need to go to a different state for college? Why couldn't I just go in-state? Should I not go to college at all?

The three questions are mainly influenced by one thing......my mom. I spent so much time counting down the days until I leave that I left out the most important person in my life. Now that college is getting closer, I'm starting to think that maybe going to a different state was not a good idea. The idea of leaving my mom daunts on me every night and anytime someone mentions college I immediately want to go hug my mom because the idea of not having her there scares me.

Okay enough of the ranting *laughs* complaining to my blog is not going to help. I might have went a little too overboard......so the question that remains is. Do I really want to go to school in Minnesota?

So since basketball season is over for my school... :( I have more free time, so I might post more here and there. I know the next post is going to be on Doctor Who. After that its whatever pops in my mind haha........so until then FAIR WINDS CHAPS!!!!