I should be cleaning but......

How is everyone's Sunday going? Good I hope, you know today was supposed to be my "clean out old clothes to buy new ones tomorrow" but the procrastinator that I am I decided to try my hand at writing again. That has always been a dream of mine, to become a well known writer of something, maybe be on New York Times Bestselling Author list but you know things change over time. Earlier in the year I decided to put away all bits and pieces of my writing, give it a break only to find out that I was perfectly happy not writing stories, poems, or even blogging. I felt that I wasn't good enough to continue this. So there it sat in my room, in a bin my various notebooks and journals full of writing and when I looked at it the only thought that came to mind was, I SHOULD BURN YOU! Yes a bit drastic I know, anyway today as I stared at this glorious notebook of mine, pen at the ready I hoped that it would come back to me (the love for writing, ideas, etc..) but no such luck. The pen just sat in my hand and that's when the realization hit me, writing is not my calling in life the dreams I had are just mere thoughts that everyone but me knew would never come true at the time, but that doesn't mean I'm going to give up. I am still determined to write, not for anyone but me, I want to find that love I had for writing at one point, to lose that would be sad. So for now people I bid you good day! -Tawni

A sad Christmas it will be this year.....

Wow it's been awhile since I've been on this thing! Talk about negligence...sorry about that guys!
So jumping back into blogging (needed a break, explanation in a later blog) I thought I would start this Summer off with a happy post on life, what exciting things are happening and what to expect in the coming months but no.

11th Doctor

Going through Tumblr and Twitter I stumble upon the headline....MATT SMITH LEAVING DOCTOR WHO for a minute I thought I read that wrong, so being the Whovian like so many others I reread the title and then I went bonkers! I searched and read everything I could to come to the realization that Mr. Matt Smith really is leaving Doctor Who. The initial reaction wasn't that bad until it full on hit me and then BAM, the floodgates opened and I found myself sitting here at my laptop crying my eyes out. ( This may sound like I've gone mad I know but bear with me here. )

Isn't he handsome?

Those who watch Doctor Who each have their favorite Doctor, some may say Christopher Eccleston (9th) and  David Tennant (10th), or if you watched the very early shows you might throw in Tom Baker (4th) or Paul McGann (8th).  Then you have me who of course preferred none other than Matt Smith (11th). His take on the Doctor made me fall in love with the character. His ability to pull of an old Time Lord but still act like a innocent schoolboy at times intrigued me, and now we have to say goodbye to him. This not only saddens me but excites me, I'm actually looking forward to seeing who the 12th doctor is. I can honestly say that when I watch the Christmas special this year my heart will indeed shatter, the regeneration scene is going to kill me to watch.
NO matter what happens Matt Smith is and will always be MY doctor, the one I fell in love with. Nothing is going to change that, unless they make Tom Hiddleston the 12th incarnation then I might have to reconsider.


Throughout the year I will throw it bits and pieces here and there about Matt's time as the doctor. Seeing how fast this year is going by I really want it to slow down considering by the end there will be a new doctor. Christmas is going to be AMAZING *sarcasm* so until then fellow readers. Good night

College...... :/

Hey guys its been forever since I've blogged! I know I sort of neglected this thing when I said I wouldn't. I'm terribly sorry for that!

Ok from the title you can already guess what this is going to be about....COLLEGE!! WOO!!
Yeah no. When I think of leaving for college I just want to cry, I know that sounds crazy and many people already are wondering if I'm going insane or not. I'd like to think I'm not but that is debatable.

The main reason I wanted to leave was to get away from "here" as in the community I live in. The people here I tolerate but some days that's just not enough. So after getting accepted to a college in Minnesota I was going crazy! I started counting down the days until I would leave, began planning out what to take what not to take, and mainly thinking of the people I was not going to miss.
With only 5 months to go until I leave, I'm starting to second guess myself. I began asking questions like: Do I really need to go to a different state for college? Why couldn't I just go in-state? Should I not go to college at all?

The three questions are mainly influenced by one thing......my mom. I spent so much time counting down the days until I leave that I left out the most important person in my life. Now that college is getting closer, I'm starting to think that maybe going to a different state was not a good idea. The idea of leaving my mom daunts on me every night and anytime someone mentions college I immediately want to go hug my mom because the idea of not having her there scares me.

Okay enough of the ranting *laughs* complaining to my blog is not going to help. I might have went a little too overboard......so the question that remains is. Do I really want to go to school in Minnesota?

So since basketball season is over for my school... :( I have more free time, so I might post more here and there. I know the next post is going to be on Doctor Who. After that its whatever pops in my mind haha........so until then FAIR WINDS CHAPS!!!!

Full Performance of "No Scrubs" from "Sadie Hawkins" | GLEE

Expectations :/

Been awhile since I posted on here, a lot has been going on! Senior stuff, cheer and well that's it. Throughout all of that I chose to write a piece for a literary magazine. Great right? Yeah not really, not when everything you write you either hate, or you get that confused look from your teacher. Mainly part of the time it's because what I write is not what he hoped or expected. A part of me is actually liking that, surprising people whenever I can is my favorite thing to do. Then another part is lost and would just like some help, maybe a few notes here and there, not question after question. I honeslty have no idea how that is supposed to help me but whatever. It's to the point where I consider my teacher a lost cause, I know that sounds terrible haha trust me I had to pause life for a moment when I said that. So I guess you can my expectations for him as a teacher were let down, which is really sad because I considered him one of my favorite.

Moving on from that rant, I would love to say that within the next couple weeks I hope to put up short posts here and there about shows, ( I haven't gave up on that part of my blog) and it's going to range from cooking shows, MTV, White Collar, Glee, Vampire Diaries, and mainly anything I watch for that day or week. It's not going to be everyday but look for that. Also I will post more about my senior year, basketball tournaments are coming up for my school and since our cheer squad is doing a drill team dance and cheer dance I hope to post a video or pictures from that. Maybe I will post a link to Youtube.....hopefully.

So have a  great rest of the week! I might post in the early hours of Friday about The Vampire Diaries! I have to miss the show Thursday night thanks to a basketball game, but none the less I'm excited!!

Random!

Morning everyone, since I'm up and bored might as well post on here right?
How is everyone doing this week, well for me I am doing well. Just realized that I'm halfway done with my senior year! WOOOO!!! Now the only thing I have next to worry about is Prom....yeah I won't dwell much on that, but so far I have no date so yeah things are going pretty well in that department haha
Couple more weeks until TVD, White Collar, and Glee resumes not having anything to watch is getting to me! I have been watching rerun episodes of White Collar non-stop and replaying my favorite episodes of TVD, as for Glee well ehhh I don't know. I love Glee, a lot but right now I feel it needs to pick up the pace a bit add some serious drama, and no not Marley's eating disorder or Kurt and Blaine, but maybe The Warblers, or what about Tina?

So as I dwell on Glee some more I hope you have a fantastic week! I will try to post again when I can, but with only 16 weeks left of school, things are starting to get loco around here! Just hoping I can survive!

Resolutions and stuff like that...sort of.

Yes *laughs* the title is sort of bad I know but anyway Happy New Years everyone hope you are enjoying it as well as I am. Tomorrow school resumes and you know what, I'm rather excited! I love the comforts of my home and what not but I miss everyone at school, well almost everyone. So again with the title, resolutions. Yeah, not so great with that but hey why not try again right? So here are the three (well maybe five) things that I want to do this year...or hope to.

1. Finish my senior year with a BANG!!

2. Try not to push people away that might care about me.

3. Not get another injury. (If you only knew *shakes head*)

4. Attempt to grow up. (This one might take a few decades haha)

5. Leave home to start my new life in college. (Which I will do for sure!!)

Elijah and Kol

 Ok enough with the mushy stuff, I'm feeling rather accomplished right now. Why? Well I'm finally caught up with The Vampire Diaries! Yes I just finished and so far this season...I mean I thought season two was bad with making me cry but no Niklaus and Damon just bring it to another level! Elena well I haven't quite figure out what I think about her, might take a couple days. So as I wait for the new episodes to resume this month all I am wishing for is they bring back Kol and Elijah. Besides being very good looking and not to mention their accents. I really enjoy there storylines with their brother, Niklaus. Speaking of him, does anyone not feel sorry for him? I want to hug him, he breaks my heart, just like Damon! *sniffles*

No words

Speaking of Damon Salvatore, Ian Somerhalder the actor that portrays him, well we all know just how good looking he is so what are your thoughts (ladies) on him portraying Christian Grey? Yes people I read The Fifty Shades trilogy *laughs* I first thought Matt Bomer, then Alexander Skarsgard, but the more they described him the more I started to realize that Ian would be the perfect fit for this movie, that dark demeanor he has is absolutely amazingly perfect! Did I mention he is very good looking?! 




So as we all begin to stop ourselves from gawking or drooling which ever one I just want to wish everyone a good night, expect my next post to be about White Collar, TVD, Glee, or The New Normal. Until then my dears....fair winds!!